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I Wont Take What You Say To Me

mariatorch — 2009-06-16T11:11:00Z

man oh man life is busy...Hubby and I are going crazy with happiness...looks like RR is going to be out soon...J is totally stoked, he misses his buddy...apparently he's all cleaned up kids...get ready for a storm when he gets back :D

so my canadian buddies over there in montreal, quebec have an awesome album out called lost in city lights..go grab it...or whatever...deadend countdown is so great..its been on replay on my ipod since i first got it...OH...and check out a video on youtue called summer girls by STEREOS...so great!

uhm modeling has taken a big back seat...you know how hard it is to make it and sometimes it just gets to be too much work...oh well...my life is pretty dandy right now...

I might be going on warped tour this year...its not for sure..maybe...

"gimme some times gimme some reason

make up your mind, cool of the fever"

new moon!

mariatorch — 2009-02-02T17:36:01Z

Wow. So much going on these days its hard to keep track of it all. Would any of you guess from my photos that I'm native? Well its true, I'm half native half spanish. At the moment I'm in vancouver canada getting ready to audition for one of the la push girls in the new moon movie on sunday afternoon. I'm terrified. I'm not much of an actor so I'm excited for the experience but new things scare me! Wish me luck!

my week is just getting worse

mariatorch — 2008-11-14T22:43:00Z

I keep forgetting to take my medicine, so all day my back hurts like a bitch, I broke my ipod the other day, so now I have no music, my man is still on tour, so I'm all lonely, and then he calls me up today and tells me that Telle from Greeley Estates has decided to leave the band! wtf! my favourite bands are all going to shit these days...I might as well quite while I'm ahead...76 DAYS THO!

so maybe its time you kids had a reality check...

mariatorch — 2008-10-29T10:55:00Z

From	*********
Date	10/08/2008 11:45 AM
Subject	hi
i read some of your blogs and i think ur a big fake and a fucking liar! how could you know ronnie radke or anyone from etf for that matter? they wouldnt waste thier time on someone like you, you swtupid ugly bitch. i think u shuld stop pretending cuz no one believes you!

Okay, so I received that message awhile ago, and let me clear some things up:

One: I don't give two shits what you believe or don't believe. The fact is that I do know Ronnie, not the whole band, although I have met them a bit. I don't need some little snot like you, whose have way across the country presumably, to believe what I'm saying because you're just another person to me.

Two: it is possible for ordinaries like me, or even you, to know someone in a band. Band members DID have other lives and friends before they got "famous", so it is possible. Ronnie and my brother went to school together. They weren't the best of friends, but they did hang out from time to time, sometimes he would even come round the house. But I didn't get to know him through that. When I got older, my brother introduced me to one of his good friends, who coincidentally was a good friend of Ronnies too. We hit it off, even though he is almost 6 year older then me, and we've been together ever since then. It's through J that I got to know Ronnie better. And when ETF started touring, Ronnie even took J along a few times. So there you have it kids, that's my story. Take it or leave, I don't need you to believe me, I just want to get it clear. I don't pretend to be anyone or anything I'm not, and that's more than I can say for a lot of you out there.

It's time for me to be honest

mariatorch — 2008-09-03T22:22:00Z

and people are going to hate me for it, but frankly, I don't give a shit. ETF: It's no secret whose side I was going to choose, even though I wanted to be neutral, but with everything that's happened lately, with all the nasty words exchanged, I chose the one who I've been behind before you guys even started. I promised myself that when I heard your new stuff, I would be opened minded about. Even when I knew that no one could replace THAT voice, I wanted to give the "new you" a chance. But after hearing that, I just can't. It is not and will never not be the same without him, for me personally. Maybe it is because of the history there, but whatever the case, I just can't do it. I can't bring myself to think of you in the same way now. In my head, you will forever be my favorite band only when he was in the band. That's it, end of story.

stop doing this to yourself ronnie

mariatorch — 2008-08-07T00:49:00Z

and for you max...

from your old buddy ronnie <3

You are the one that deserves to be in this position.

YOU are the real culprit.

And if your fans only knew who you really are.

I love that shit that you wrote in vegas weekly... so im THAT guy now?? AND ALSO, i loved how you wrote that message that you were going to come visit me on the 4th on my myspace comments when you could've just written me a letter. You like all the attention dont you? And i found out the reason why you didn't come, you were talking to that kid's mom the whole time, stabbing me in my back. She said she went to your house the day before my court date but i wouldnt've shown up either if i was playing both sides.

YOU are the real reason im in here, because your too scared to fix your own problems. I just want to let you know maxwell, that your times coming. Trust me, your gunna get what you deserve!

I'm more clean minded than ever, Escape the fate is ME, and will ALWAYS be ME.

And YOU will forever live in MY shadows.

I'll tell you right now kids that it wasn't him who wrote it, but it was his message
I just wish he wouldn't have done it...
And that Max hadn't responded the way he did...
there is so much you all don't know
and so much you all don't want to know
it would ruin everything for you
so just go on thinking how you do
pick a side, because its better the way it is now.

oh ronnie

mariatorch — 2008-08-04T20:07:00Z

I'm sorry. When I heard those words, oh man, my heart just fell to the floor. It's really a shame that you did this to yourself, but hey, life's a bitch and then you die right? Ha. Me and J are here for you, but J is really torn about the situation. We'll try and visit when we can, if we can. Just know we're here when ever you need us, despite everything that happened with you and J. Friends stick together, yes?

its a shame

mariatorch — 2008-07-01T19:15:00Z

and ìm sure many of you have read it by now. I wish that I could help him, but its his fault. He`s dug himself this hole and he has to find a way out of it. He knows I`m here for him, but he can`t seem to get the message through his head that we all wanted to help him. Even when he was as screwed as ever, and said nasty things to us, and did all that shit, we were still here for him. He`s still a friend in my mind, I`ve put all that shit behind me, because we were friends before he turned down the wrong path. Now I can only hope that his fate is not what it seems its destined to be.

Newly Wed

mariatorch — 2008-02-19T13:29:00Z

life could possibly be the best thing in the world. Haven't moved into the new house yet because there are some issues, but it should be soon I hope. But seriously, it's overwhelming. I love being introduced as his wife. The wedding was on Saturday, at Treasure Island in Vegas. Friday night we were out partying and ran into Paris Hilton and Fat Joe.

Right now I'm sitting doing nothing. My back hurts. I think I should go see a doctor about it because it's getting really bad. Anywho, wish me luck on my marriage.:)

The Cab

mariatorch — 2008-02-11T13:03:00Z

from Las Vegas Nevada kids...They are amazing....They pretty much made me cry last nite because they played our wedding song...how coincidental rite?? They're from Vegas, his home town, where we're getting married in FIVE DAYS ....

"I'll be your crying shoulder,

I'll be love's suicide

I'll be better when I'm older,

I'll be the greatest fan of your life.

I talked to them after their show, and explained everything and how they almost made me cry, and they were so sweet. The bassist, Cash, was so nice. He told me they would come to my wedding if they weren't on tour. He and Alex (m) were like, "Aww, group hug, cry it out," and they hugged me, and when I tried to let go, Cash wouldn't. And then after, I talked to Alex DeLeon, the front man, and told him too, and he hugged me. Before I left, Cash and Alex(m) came to find me, and they both wished me luck on my marriage, and hugged me yet again. The way cash hugged me, is the way I want to be held for the rest of my life by my fiance. What a wonderful evening. Cobra was good too, but Alex Suarez wasn't so into it last nite.

so anyway, it's five days away. anxious, nervous, scared, excited, so many emotions to be felt. Who knew?? Anywho, just thought I'd let you guys know what's happening.